12 april 2026, 10:13pm When we love someone, and they love us back... They become a source of light for us. You can bask in their radiating warmth. You can see it, feel it, believe it When we love someone, but they stop loving us... They become shadows. We stand in it, expecting the warmth but we get coldness. We shiver at the absence of what we received before, hoping desperately this will change. It never will. Someone else who could possibly love us isn't able to see us because we are in the dark. It is only when we move out of the shadow of this previous person who doesn't love us anymore can the new person discover where we are. And the cycle of life continues. Possible it is. That in this world of pairs, you could probably remain single (either by choice or destiny, either because you experienced n abandoned it out never ever got to experience it right). You see around, everyone with everyone. You, not. A bit ashamed, sad, regretful of choosing ...
When you are not impacted by the lack of an outcome, You become the outcome. So for your case... If you are not affected by the lack of love, You become love. The first thought that flooded my head at 7 after I woke up this Sunday morning...from a dream ...I saw Robin Williams said hi to me..He was smiling. Weird ..a hollywood actor? Hmm...I have been thinking about his sense of humor n personal life lately though...so that must be that. An Imagined Letter from My Future Self (2035) Dear Mimi, You won’t believe this, but I’m writing to you from the farmhouse. Yes, "that" one. The one you dreamed of since you were 12 ...after you got married & told your ex decades back ..in whispers with hesitation what you thought of ...what you wanted to do with sustainable farming with direct produce to consumers using a woman driven community farm even before these words became fashionable and that one, which was nestled in the foothills, where the breeze smells like jasmine and smoke ...