Talking from the Heart - Mine to Urs

At what point in life when we are growing older do we start living backwards in life ? I mean just a whole lot of nostalgia that sinks in and everything in the present looks plain vanilla... Something's wrong ... STOP!! It was supposed to get more awesome as life progressed so what faltered ... Dammit did i break my mojo or even worse, did i loose my chutzpah (thoughts from my inner child) ?? Umm, yes (says the adult in me, trying to parent me) ... because being a wise grown up requires a lot of monotonous aka mundane efforts. The routine day to day joys of nurturing a younger being in life (rolls eyes at my lack of parenting skills or not such mommy vibes). The parent in me tells my inner child, Look here Doofus ! It's not always glamorous or exciting. But it's important to remember that the extraordinary weight of ordinary things can be just as meaningful as the most exciting experiences.  The things that make us feel safe and loved, like the feeling of our child...

The अनethical conundrum... Lives & Dies Why do I live like this ... in moments between those expansions and contractions of our chests, incessantly chasing happiness & running away from sadness as stuck in a loop between those inhalations and exhalations like that of a child's peaceful sleep.  Once you're born, there's is no cure for it, isn't it?One has to face the accident of one's birth, sadly.  Is there any emotion that is permanent in nature? Even if it's sadness, so i can rest upon it with dependability?! What if one becomes उन्मनी ? Have you heard of such a notion ?  Sometimes I'm reminded of a song that goes like, देखो तो चली हैं हवा नयी दिल में फिर जला वो दिया कही ख्वाबो के जंगल में पेड़ो की शाखों से पत्ते समेटे मैं हु कई, अब तो मिलो अजनबी हैं मेरी दुआ की जब हम मिले तू देखे मुझे मेरे दोस्त एक बार यूँही जैसे मिले अजनबी  हम फिर से चले, तू फिर से हँसे मैं फिर से उडू, पाऊं नयी एक ख़ुशी जैसे मिले अजनबी, जैसे मिले अजनबी This lost & f...