Talking from the Heart - Mine to Urs

Life is a constant debate with a very stubborn opponent—self. Here I am, a single mother juggling work, bills, and the ever-elusive quest for five minutes of peace. My heart is a battlefield, worn out from the endless war of love lost and unfulfilled dreams. But in the midst of this heart break and chaos, I've stumbled upon two philosophies that mirror my current state of being: Parinama Vada and Vivarta Vada. For those of you not familiar, allow me to break it down. Parinama Vada is the theory of real change. It suggests that change is intrinsic and inevitable, much like my patience wearing thin from the stress of explaining space exploration to my child while managing a RFI call or a Pipeline review of my team. This theory says that the effect is real and pre-exists in the cause, just waiting to unfold. On the other hand, Vivarta Vada is the theory of apparent change. This one posits that what seems like change is just an illusion. It’s like when you think your ex has...

  As a devotee of vedic & celestial mechanics with a gaze turned skyward, I am captivated by the remarkable parallels between the fierce grace of Kali, the Hindu goddess of transformation, and the awe-inspiring phenomenon of a black hole. Both embody the profound truth of our universe: the cyclical dance of creation and destruction, leading to a state of absolute oneness. Kali, depicted with dark skin symbolizing the all-encompassing void, stands astride Shiva, the embodiment of cosmic consciousness. Their entwined form, a powerful image of dissolution and rebirth, resonates with the groundbreaking discovery made by the LIGO (Laser Interferometer Gravitational-Wave Observatory) program in 2015. This program captured the very essence of Kali and Shiva's cosmic dance – the collision of two stellar-mass black holes, separated by approximately 1.3 billion solar masses, merging into a single entity. Black holes, with their immense gravity exceeding a certain threshold (the Schwarzsc...

pic source: image generated from ai on text prompt, why am I not even surprised REFLECTIONS of the MADNESS : Monologue  Morning 4 am : Increasingly as life is fleeting from my body, I feel like a white dwarf star, collapsing under the weight of her own thoughts, going deep inside continuously, completely detached from the reality and universal laws & practicalities of the natural world outside. The world continues to disappoint, as I seek more within, the dependencies shudder my skin.. the growing thunderous noise of the calling from within is getting hard to ignore. "I" need to be guided and yet i resist to surrender with faith "I" want to control my destiny and yet i continue to disbelieve in miracles... And vice versa. "I" see the Maaya and yet i refuse to detach from the Moh Hopeless am I? I am what, I am that ... So then where am i? Why am I even ! When I'm trying to be everywhere I am nowhere When The "I" dissolves into ...

I often feel like a white dwarf star, collapsing under the weight of her own thoughts going deep inside continuously, completely detached from the reality and universal laws & practicalities of the natural world outside. The world continues to disappoint as I seek more within, the dependencies shudder my skin and the growing thundering noise of the calling from within is getting increasingly hard to ignore. "I" need to be guided and yet i resist to surrender with faith "I" want to control my destiny and yet i continue to believe in miracles "I" see the maaya and yet i refuse to detach from the moh Hopeless am I,  I am what, I am that ... So then where am i, why am I even 

I have always been fascinated by Shiva. His many forms, his varied personality, and the deep philosophical insights have always drawn me in his presence. My first understanding of the concept of Shiva was from the quote “Neti, Neti” as in not this, not this (as in the Brahman). It teaches us that we should not attach ourselves to any particular idea or belief about Shiva. He is beyond all our limited understanding. We should strive to experience him directly, through meditation and other spiritual practices. This is also found in Bhagavat Gita. I have random thoughts about & off-of & inspired from him. I am putting in words, some of these in the same chaotic fashion (although all are entangled lovingly in some sense in my experiential mind, hard to put in words though) in which they have been flying in my brain lately. Starting with the ultimate sense of joy, passion & enlightenment as I have known it, the pure sensory pleasure of dancing, the ballet, the jog, the sway,...

At what point in life when we are growing older do we start living backwards in life ? I mean just a whole lot of nostalgia that sinks in and everything in the present looks plain vanilla... Something's wrong ... STOP!! It was supposed to get more awesome as life progressed so what faltered ... Dammit did i break my mojo or even worse, did i loose my chutzpah (thoughts from my inner child) ?? Umm, yes (says the adult in me, trying to parent me) ... because being a wise grown up requires a lot of monotonous aka mundane efforts. The routine day to day joys of nurturing a younger being in life (rolls eyes at my lack of parenting skills or not such mommy vibes). The parent in me tells my inner child, Look here Doofus ! It's not always glamorous or exciting. But it's important to remember that the extraordinary weight of ordinary things can be just as meaningful as the most exciting experiences.  The things that make us feel safe and loved, like the feeling of our child...

Tarot has become so popular these days. But the psychic behind Tarot is still relatively unknown.. i would like to tell you some interesting facts about Tarot that maybe you haven't known or thought about yet, so ready?? Read on ... 1. The Death card doesn't actually mean you're going to die or something terrible will happen : This is one of the most common misconceptions about tarot. The Death card represents transformation and change, not literal death. It's one of my favourite cards and shows progress in life, for sure. 2. Sometimes the cards can be a little too on-the-nose: Have you ever had a tarot reading where the cards seemed to be almost too accurate? It can be both amusing and a little spooky when the cards seem to know exactly what's going on in your life. 3. Tarot readers don't always have all the answers: Despite what some people may believe, tarot readers don't have all the answers. Sometimes the cards can be confusing or contradict...