Out of syllabus, ever seeking that cannot be sought

I often feel like a white dwarf star, collapsing under the weight of her own thoughts going deep inside continuously, completely detached from the reality and universal laws & practicalities of the natural world outside.

The world continues to disappoint as I seek more within, the dependencies shudder my skin and the growing thundering noise of the calling from within is getting increasingly hard to ignore.

"I" need to be guided and yet i resist to surrender with faith

"I" want to control my destiny and yet i continue to believe in miracles

"I" see the maaya and yet i refuse to detach from the moh

Hopeless am I,

I am what, I am that ...

So then where am i, why am I even

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Dancing Shiva and Shakti Within me: Balancing & Laughing in the Divine Play (who am I not enjoy this)

I was watching Dr. Strange yesterday, the movie. It was quite a thought-provoking experience. One theme that resonated deeply with me was the idea of readiness and how we often aren't truly ready for what life throws at us until we face the inevitability of death. This idea led me to a profound realization: life and death are not just parts of a cycle but are intrinsically interconnected. The moment we are born, we begin the process of dying, inching closer to that full circle. And yet, with death, we also see the potential for rebirth, suggesting that life and death are one and the same, continually feeding into each other. The realization ties into a broader spiritual perspective I've been contemplating—the interplay of Shiva and Shakti within us. Shiva, the embodiment of detachment and tranquility, stands apart from the cyclical nature of life and death, while Shakti, the dynamic, passionate energy, immerses herself in the flow of life, with all its desires and struggles. ...

a dream and a letter from the future self arrived

When you are not impacted by the lack of an outcome, You become the outcome. So for your case... If you are not affected by the lack of love, You become love. The first thought that flooded my head at 7 after I woke up this Sunday morning...from a dream ...I saw Robin Williams said hi to me..He was smiling. Weird ..a hollywood actor? Hmm...I have been thinking about his sense of humor n personal life lately though...so that must be that. An Imagined Letter from My Future Self (2035) Dear Mimi, You won’t believe this, but I’m writing to you from the farmhouse. Yes, "that" one. The one you dreamed of since you were 12 ...after you got married & told your ex decades back ..in whispers with hesitation what you thought of ...what you wanted to do with sustainable farming with direct produce to consumers using a woman driven community farm even before these words became fashionable and that one, which was nestled in the foothills, where the breeze smells like jasmine and smoke ...

Zooming in & out, Timing is Everything!

Ever feel like you're juggling two maps at once? One's a satellite view, all grand and sweeping; the other's a street map, crammed with tiny details. That's kinda like life, isn't it? There's the "cosmic" crowd, the ones who see life as a giant play, already scripted. We're just actors, following cues. Destiny, karma, the whole shebang...all about detachment. Like, "Yeah, I'm "in" this scene, but I'm not gonna get too attached to the props." It's a cool way to stay chill when life throws curveballs... So just " zoom-out ". Then there's the " zoom-in " folks. They're obsessed with the Now .... Every breath, every heartbeat, every fleeting thought. It's like they're on a perpetual nature hike, spotting the tiniest wildflowers. Nothing gets past them. This can lead to some serious zen moments, but hey, sometimes you just wanna binge-watch Netflix without analyzing your pop...

Talking from the Heart - Mine to Urs

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