Talking from the Heart - Mine to Urs

At what point in life when we are growing older do we start living backwards in life ? I mean just a whole lot of nostalgia that sinks in and everything in the present looks plain vanilla... Something's wrong ... STOP!! It was supposed to get more awesome as life progressed so what faltered ... Dammit did i break my mojo or even worse, did i loose my chutzpah (thoughts from my inner child) ?? Umm, yes (says the adult in me, trying to parent me) ... because being a wise grown up requires a lot of monotonous aka mundane efforts. The routine day to day joys of nurturing a younger being in life (rolls eyes at my lack of parenting skills or not such mommy vibes). The parent in me tells my inner child, Look here Doofus ! It's not always glamorous or exciting. But it's important to remember that the extraordinary weight of ordinary things can be just as meaningful as the most exciting experiences.  The things that make us feel safe and loved, like the feeling of our child...

Tarot has become so popular these days. But the psychic behind Tarot is still relatively unknown.. i would like to tell you some interesting facts about Tarot that maybe you haven't known or thought about yet, so ready?? Read on ... 1. The Death card doesn't actually mean you're going to die or something terrible will happen : This is one of the most common misconceptions about tarot. The Death card represents transformation and change, not literal death. It's one of my favourite cards and shows progress in life, for sure. 2. Sometimes the cards can be a little too on-the-nose: Have you ever had a tarot reading where the cards seemed to be almost too accurate? It can be both amusing and a little spooky when the cards seem to know exactly what's going on in your life. 3. Tarot readers don't always have all the answers: Despite what some people may believe, tarot readers don't have all the answers. Sometimes the cards can be confusing or contradict...

pic source : internet  Here is the deal i told Shiva ...  He didn't care to bother to even open his eyes Hellos ? I'm talking to you ? Listen ok ...  He seems to be increasingly vanishing into thin air no wait where are you going, I havent even started yet pouring out my problems, i just need to tell you & you have to listen to me ok and ... He seem to say "..n then what?" you solve my problems why ? you created me no, you are the creation of your own imagination The End ???!!! Arrey, no !! Just the beginning... Got me in loops, what did he mean I'm the creation of my own imagination?? Shiva was gone. What kind of homework is this God??  I have unfinished business with God , he keeps throwing riddles at me and then says you are the one who came to me seeking questions, because your who thinks your already know it all & you just need a validation to your delusion. In conclusion, as the famous comedian Woody Allen once said, "If you want to ...

समवृत्ति और तटस्थता। एक शब्दों में, इन दोनों का अर्थ समान हो सकता है - सब कुछ एक जैसा देखने की कला। एक शांत और स्थिर मन के साथ समवृत्ति और दूसरे में दुख और सुख से अछूता होने के रूप में तटस्थता। दोनों ही आपको आगे बढ़ने में मदद कर सकते हैं या आपको खड़ा कर सकते हैं, या फिर इनमें से एक हो जाएँगे और आपको फिर से शुरू करने के लिए तैयार करेंगे। Equanimity means staying calm and peaceful in all situations, without getting too caught up in the highs or sinking too low in the lows. Indifference means not caring at all. Here's a funny story to explain the difference: Imagine you're on a rollercoaster ride. Equanimity would mean enjoying the ride without screaming your lungs out or throwing up. Indifference would mean falling asleep and snoring through the whole thing. Another example: You're at a party and someone spills a drink on you. Equanimity would mean accepting it and finding a way to clean up without getting angry or upset. Indifference would mean not even noticing ...

I have this vision, that I would finally come & find you. Scattered pieces of distance would not stand in my way. Not needing words; the barest of glimpses would suffice for you & me. (Sic, Kafka from letters to milena) Life, I do not want to complain about you, or complain to you. I only want to say this : I'm still in love with you. But I was a fool, enough ignorant to live one place. So now, in my heart, I feel orphan, homeless, as in a succession of shelters where I don't feel I belong at all. Never will.  Sometimes I look at you, like a poor child looks at a sweet shop full of treats, smelling and imagining all the goodness in the store but never able to quite savour the real experience. This feeling of lack of unnecessary, for there is much love in the world, to give & recieve, to win& loose, to conquer & surrender to... But one doesn't want to try have all the people in the world, and still feel lonely without the one. What a misery, a...

The अनethical conundrum... Lives & Dies Why do I live like this ... in moments between those expansions and contractions of our chests, incessantly chasing happiness & running away from sadness as stuck in a loop between those inhalations and exhalations like that of a child's peaceful sleep.  Once you're born, there's is no cure for it, isn't it?One has to face the accident of one's birth, sadly.  Is there any emotion that is permanent in nature? Even if it's sadness, so i can rest upon it with dependability?! What if one becomes उन्मनी ? Have you heard of such a notion ?  Sometimes I'm reminded of a song that goes like, देखो तो चली हैं हवा नयी दिल में फिर जला वो दिया कही ख्वाबो के जंगल में पेड़ो की शाखों से पत्ते समेटे मैं हु कई, अब तो मिलो अजनबी हैं मेरी दुआ की जब हम मिले तू देखे मुझे मेरे दोस्त एक बार यूँही जैसे मिले अजनबी  हम फिर से चले, तू फिर से हँसे मैं फिर से उडू, पाऊं नयी एक ख़ुशी जैसे मिले अजनबी, जैसे मिले अजनबी This lost & f...

Then tonight is almost the full moon.... Well I did not feel like leaving the moon alone. I missed seeing you so much. I love the Sun, always have....but it's like a friend, mentor and guide. Supports me in all that's right in the world. But oh this moon... Everything about it reminds me ...of me. Risks, darkness, borrowed light and yet shining on its own. This beauty i admire in you moon... You pull me together where i have broken in pieces. You tell me it's ok to be silent, when the world sleeps to be wide awake in dreams.